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[Jun. 26th, 2009|02:05 pm] |
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I bought a three hundred dollar car. Every time I pull out of a parking spot you can tell where I parked because of the rust that falls off. I suppose I need to get a drivers license. |
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| #11 |
[Apr. 9th, 2009|09:03 am] |
I went for a walk yesterday and ended up falling asleep on a park bench. It's still a bit chilly out and some random older lady put a jacket over top of me, which was sweet in one of those odd moments in life. A good birthday. Strangers being kind is not something I'm used to. I also realized by the end of the afternoon that I'm now eighteen years old. This means nothing to me. Other than I don't know how I'm sticking here for years more.
Sorry about ditching yesterday. Duncan, cupcakes at lunch? Jenna? Charlie? Oh hell is it my turn with the egg? Ugh. |
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| #10 |
[Feb. 24th, 2009|02:26 pm] |
Worst week ever. I can't sleep because I worry and I'm distracted and sad all the time. I'm having trouble sleeping and everything is incredibly boring and not worth it. I'd rather have the headache than deal with this loneliness. Doesn't look like I'm doing too well with my classes but none of the teachers have bothered contacting me about it. Maybe I get some sort of mental pass, which would make sense, but now that I'm cryptically and publicly typing this I'm sure I'll end up in detention tomorrow with tutors knocking at my door. No thanks. I have no reason to have a young academic life since I won't be having an adult one, ever.
I'm going to for a walk. |
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| #9 |
[Feb. 11th, 2009|08:23 pm] |
I fell asleep during lunch today. Not in the cafeteria or anything. I came back to my room with an apple and laid down and before I knew it I was asleep. Missed the rest of my classes. I have detention, no doubt. It was an accident but teachers don't like to listen to that kind of thing. I also realize how much I don't fit in here. I don't care about my grades. I don't particularly think I'm ever going to have a 9-5 job. Why... am I here? Beyond the obvious which isn't going to matter in the future. I don't see why I can't have a much needed nap without getting punished. It's just not right.
Conclusions of the month so far? I can't make pizza. Maybe that's why I'm here. Food. The kitchen lady is very good at what she does.
Duncan, are we going into town tomorrow or do you have plans with little miss perky? |
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| #8 |
[Jan. 31st, 2009|10:13 pm] |
I'm still on an origami fit but I'm getting sick of paper cuts. I've had stomach viruses less frustrating than a few fingers throbbing with pain like this. I'm probably being a baby but whatever. Paper cuts are evil. Anyway, I decided not to go to that girl sleep over thing. I have better things to do than attempt to make friends. Half my friends don't like me most of the time and vice versa. I also realize now how much of the teenage girl life I don't like. I've been reading magazines in the library. What the fuck!? I took one "does he like you" quiz and had the urge to make a paper crane out of the page and drown it.
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| #7 |
[Jan. 4th, 2009|02:37 pm] |
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I got an origami book for Christmas and have done nothing but fold paper for the past week. This has left me with the urge to do something really bad. I cannot stand being cooped up and there isn't anywhere to go and complaining only makes me annoyed when other people do it so I'll spare you the reading.
I'm not ready for classes to start back up.
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[Dec. 11th, 2008|06:58 am] |
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Shoveling the snow from the sidewalks at 6:30am is not how anyone wants to start the day. Mr. Moretti is too much of a morning person and I am going to think twice about skipping class now. At least getting caught. Which is probably impossible. I think it's supposed to rain? What's left will probably turn to ice. I should probably eat breakfast so I don't feel so sick now. It's the cold. I probably got sick from being outside so early in the morning before the sun is even out. It's not like I own a pair of gloves. And no, Miss Holmes, please don't bring me a bunch of gloves now! I'm not complaining. Everyone likes to suspect someone of whining. I'm fine. Just... it sucks. |
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| #5 |
[Nov. 12th, 2008|04:00 pm] |
Why is it when there is a crisis people seem to jam food in front of you and act like it's going to make it all better? I don't think hot chocolate with tiny marshmallows is going to make anyone forget the fact that... whatever is going on, is going on, and no one knows why or how. Details aren't going to make your lives any better. There's a reason sometimes we shouldn't be very open about what we can do. People are going to find us and use us against our morals or for their own profit or amusements. I don't think the police are going to do anything more than we can. I just wanted to write that down. No one is shielding very well and everyone's upset. It's frustrating.
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| #4 |
[Oct. 23rd, 2008|07:23 pm] |
I didn't go to class yesterday or today because I'm sick. Not really, I think I'm dying... I think we're all dying and he just abandoned us to feel like this and I might have to kill him if I ever see him again.
What do people do, normally, when they don't feel well? Besides rest. |
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| #3 |
[Sep. 25th, 2008|07:56 pm] |
If I had a home I'd want to go back.
I went for a walk and I swallowed a fly or some sort of bug, anyway. This reminded me of that song of the old lady who swallowed a fly? Which brought me to that one with the dog and the bone in some guys cupboard?
Anyway. I don't use this and I suppose I should. I just don't have anything to say. |
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| #2 |
[Sep. 9th, 2008|01:37 pm] |
It's so cold in the room. I want to do nothing but curl up in my bed with lots of blankets. It's nice how in heat you have to find a cool place and that's harder when you can't afford electricity or a fan of your own but in the fall and winter all you need is warmth from other things. I look forward to the trees changing. I didn't get to see too much of that in the city. I'm in a good mood for the first time in weeks which is probably why I'm utilizing this network journal. I don't really know anyone here yet. Pretty sure I don't want to, either.
I also spent the weekend burying lots of money. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2008|10:50 am] |
Hello. I'm the girl that wears the same mauve dress every day and eats cereal with her fingers. I hate it here but it's my only chance at fixing a wrong that I got my friends into. I don't like fire and I certainly don't care for many of you.
Whoever left the box of clothes outside of our door... thank you. It was thoughtful of you and annoying that we take handouts and can't even thank people to their faces because everyone here wants to treat me like I've been abused and torn. My name is Roxy and I'm a telepath. Twelve easy steps to fixing my life?
Thats as introductory as im getting. |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2008|02:26 pm] |
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